RIP Gucci
May 2025 – October 1, 2025
I wrote this the day after Gucci passed.
It is with such a heavy heart that I write this.
I never could have imagined the pain I feel right now, the emptiness in my heart, the void that is present… Gucci passed last night (October 1, 2025).
As explorative and confident and quick as she was she somehow got hit by a car.
And just like that I found her cold lifeless little body on the side of the road after searching for her and calling her name for hours.
She always comes when I called her. She was always within reach, she listened and came home when I called for her.
Not last night. She felt distant.
We had a guest coming to the house to stay. We were showing him around but I couldn’t shake this worried feeling.
I searched the whole house for her multiple times. Checked all her possible spots and walked the farm.
Something was strange. Where was she?
My worst nightmare to see the precious life I’ve been nurturing day in and day out lifeless, alone.
Dead.
Devastating and heartbreaking beyond words to experience such a shock.
Gucci was the love I didn’t know I needed but was so blessed to have.
She was a true bundle of joy and love. A love that I’ve never experienced in a kitten before.
So warm and cuddly and fierce.
She loved me and I loved her. She loved everyone she met, laid on them and cuddled them. The best kitten.
We woke up together and slept side by side for 4 short months. She purred on me and always wanted to be close to me. Licked my face in the morning. We would eye gaze until I came to and was ready to get out of bed. We had our little morning ritual.
Her heart was so big. Every guest that came through, she stole their heart. She melted it and opened it. She was a healer.
Those beautiful blue eyes, her brown little face and paws, and her uniquely soft fur. She was easily my favorite little creature for many reasons.
She loved to eat and I loved feeding her.
When I first picked her up she was so weak that she feel asleep in my palms, being the runt of the litter she was failing to thrive. I brought her to life and helped her become a robust healthy kitty. I weighed her every day in the beginning to make sure she was growing the right amount.
She was so easy to care for.
And she loved me for it.
She was my sidekick. My bestie.
I miss her so much.
And even though I hear the words, “I’ll be back, I promise.” It doesn’t soothe my heart or fill the void I’m feeling right now. This big hole in my heart that was just for her, her presence so big that the loss of her weighs so heavy on us, the other furry babies, and the land.
Gucci, I trust you’ll be back. You found me this time and you’ll find me again but it hurts so much to know that for the next however many months – we’ll be apart.
And I know we will make up for it but I’m still in shock. Aching for my little Gucci that I just love so much.
You stretched my heart beyond what I thought was possible and now my heart is broken. It feels shattered into a million tiny Gucci pieces.
We buried you on the land and created you a little shrine. I’ll bring you fresh flowers and burn incense for you. I made you a cross. Greg stacked the rocks. And we will visit you multiple times a day.
I keep seeing you in the corner of my eye, I know your Spirit is still lingering around us, watching over us, being with us as we come to this new truth of having to live without you.
Life is so precious.
It’s so fragile. One wrong turn and you can be gone. One accident and it can cost you your life. We take every day for granted as if there will be a next day but for Gucci her last day was October 1, 2025.
The shock of you leaving your body and leaving Earth. The shock of me finding you and you being gone. This new reality. It will take time for it to set in.
I carry the gifts and the lessons that will continue to unfold as a result.
